It's been 1 year since I have arrived home from Craig hospital and Tiff tells me I need to write something quick to tell everyone what I have been up to and I guess the last time I updated the blog was way back in November. It is so crazy how slow a year can go but how it can also fly by at the same time. A lot of this might seem repititious as you may have seen it before but it's all I got. Enjoy.
So obviously there was plenty to keep me busy this past year. The highlight was getting my maverick setup with hand controls and getting to go racing again. It has not all been sunshine and roses like I had envisioned it. I guess I thought I would just jump right back in the middle of it and be as competive as I was before? I'm sure things will get better with more seat time, and the more I get my car dialed in. It has been a struggle lately dealing with some things. I'm still dealing with some back pain but it is mostly mental struggles. In my mind I just want to get back at it. I want to go back to training and racing and everyday "normal" life. I guess it didn't actually set in until recently that things are not going to go back to the way they were before. I always had a little hope in the back of my mind that i can out work this thing and get things back.
When I look short term I am fine with the things that I am dealing with and the trials I have but when I look long term I shut down and make myself crazy. I have a hard time thinking about all the things that I loved to do and wanted to enjoy with my kids and now it is all different. No doubt I can still do them, it will just take a different way to do them. I'm sure I will look back on this blog some day and will say "wow, I was such a idiot" and I'm sure there is someone with a disability reading this is thinking the same thing.
I look back at the last year and am so thankful for the blessings that I have and the people who are around me in my everyday life. My friends and family who drop by and help me with whatever and who aren't afraid to tell me quit being a little sally and let's do this. My kids who are great and do more than I ask of them. Jaxyn still asks me weekly "dad when are you going to walk so we can get our motorhome back and you can go race"? I'm so greatful for the Leach family and the uplifting phone conversations I have with Johnny. He has this thing about him that every time I talk to him, it makes me feel upbeat and get back on track
The foundation is still going, the only hold up has been me and honestly I feel really guiltily that I have been caught up in the everyday activities and trying to get my own life figured out that I have put it to the back burner and it is hard to give it the attention that it needs. Tammy Leach has done a amazing job running it and I thank her for her hard work and patience. I do have a few candidates picked out, now we are just trying to figure out what is the best way the foundation can best help them. Hopefully the next time I write I will be able to tell you a bit of who and what we've done to help.
Well that's all I've got for now. Getting ready to start this hot summer off with a bang! I had a ton more pictures and people I would like to thank and I could go on and on but I think you have had enough.